Anxious

I am in need of something that would put this weeping heart to silence. This feeling of uncertainty is bogging me inside for the nth time. Death!

Highschool Loves

I love everything about this night. I met up with high school friends whom I hoped seeing. We went to Seaside, MOA where we had our dinner c/o Bedz and headed to Musicbank and spent the rest of our night singing at the top of our lungs. It was really a memorable night for everyone especially to us based here in Manila who had been struggling for quite some time trying to blend in. But hell yeah, we found each other back again and that is something worth celebrating.

Bottomline: this is something to be blogged about since I promised myself not to scribble my thoughts if it wasn't fun and happy. I also felt that even for few hours, I became myself again. I felt my lost self after being surrounded by old faces whom I missed a lot. Those old antics and everything worth remembering about high school were given life. Now that I'm in Med school where crying everyday is not a new story anymore and losing someone's identity is a possible tendency, I realized that I should need more time to enjoy my life and surround myself with people that I actually belong to.

Wonderful evening! :)

Motivation-less

I love writing my thoughts. I don't think I'm good at it but the thing is, I love expressing myself through words and phrases. I always felt the urge to write every time, every single day of my life, but lately, I felt so empty, running out of words, of thoughts.

I honestly felt that I am being monotonous. I don't want to write what I wrote already just because I am feeling the same thing. So I got rather tired and empty. I don't wanna talk about being sad because it wasn't healthy anymore. So apparently, there is no motivation that's pushing me to the top. Just an empty glass waiting to be filled up by an eagerness in life. And apparently, I don't want to whine anymore because it serves me no purpose at all.

Bye for now. I just hope that my motivation is lurking at the corner. I have BIG dreams and I don't want them to be shattered. Thinking of a random motivation is easy. But you know, it is always easier said than done. To engrave it on your heart and start pushing yourself in your journey to success is rather a difficult thing to do. I just wait for the time to feel it. And yes, I am not giving up because I know it will be worth the wait. :)